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176Backslide and New Associates - Page 8 Empty Re: Backslide and New Associates on Fri Dec 02, 2016 10:23 pm

"The soup might not be good anymore," I sigh, shifting so I can get off of the bed so he won't have to fight with the blankets I was on. 

"I can fix you something else, though?"

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177Backslide and New Associates - Page 8 Empty Re: Backslide and New Associates on Fri Dec 02, 2016 10:26 pm

"Would you be mad if I said I'm not really hungry?" I ask with a frown as I get out of the bed slowly, my hand searching for her arm for support as I do.

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178Backslide and New Associates - Page 8 Empty Re: Backslide and New Associates on Fri Dec 02, 2016 10:31 pm

"No," I sigh in response, catching his arm as I step back towards the bed so he can use me for support. 

"I would like to get some broth or something in you," I add, "Even if it's just half a cup."

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179Backslide and New Associates - Page 8 Empty Re: Backslide and New Associates on Fri Dec 02, 2016 10:34 pm

"Okay," I nod, my hand slipping into the crook of her elbow as she guides us toward the bathroom. "And some toast," I concede.

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180Backslide and New Associates - Page 8 Empty Re: Backslide and New Associates on Fri Dec 02, 2016 10:40 pm

"And some toast," I nod with a slight smile, walking him into the bathroom slowly. 

"My gods, your bathroom is massive," I say a bit impulsively, stopping near the sinks so he can brace himself before I step away to set up the tub. "I had entirely forgotten..." Sighing, I stoop down by the tub, cutting on the faucets and feeling the tepid water as I wait for it to reach a more comfortable temperature.

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181Backslide and New Associates - Page 8 Empty Re: Backslide and New Associates on Fri Dec 02, 2016 10:44 pm

"Oh yeah, you were in here before, weren't you?" I ask as I start opening the cupboards to look through the salts and oils. "How is it I've been naked around you already and we haven't even properly kissed? Seems criminal, if you ask me."

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182Backslide and New Associates - Page 8 Empty Re: Backslide and New Associates on Fri Dec 02, 2016 10:45 pm

"Probably because one of us is usually high off our rockers," I remark, glancing back at him as I reach down to stop up the drain. "There's not much challenge in kissing a stoned person, and then you might not even remember it properly. Seems like a waste of a first kiss, to me."

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183Backslide and New Associates - Page 8 Empty Re: Backslide and New Associates on Fri Dec 02, 2016 10:50 pm

"Yeah, but there's also something a little exciting about being so powerless and at someone else's mercy," I argue as I pull down a jar of herbal salts before making my way over to the tub slowly. I'm not nearly as oriented in the darkness as I usually am, and I know that it shows as I stop several paces from the edge of the tub.

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184Backslide and New Associates - Page 8 Empty Re: Backslide and New Associates on Fri Dec 02, 2016 11:00 pm

"For you, maybe," I laugh, standing up so I can reach out and grab his hand to guide it to the tub. 

"I don't relish being intimate with someone who won't remember it tomorrow." I add, reaching over to take the salts from him before sitting against the edge of the tub so I can open the jar and sprinkle them in. "Memories are important, they shouldn't be wasted."

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185Backslide and New Associates - Page 8 Empty Re: Backslide and New Associates on Fri Dec 02, 2016 11:06 pm

"Yes, I can agree there, I suppose," I nod as I sway in one spot, my fingers fidgeting with the drawstrings on my pants absently. "But what if you already have memories together, and you already trust one another and you both agree that you want to experience not remembering what the other person did to you?"

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186Backslide and New Associates - Page 8 Empty Re: Backslide and New Associates on Fri Dec 02, 2016 11:21 pm

"I don't know," I say, stopping to look at him as the jar of salts sit in my lap forgotten. "I suppose there haven't been a whole lot of people in my life that I'd trust enough to do that with."

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187Backslide and New Associates - Page 8 Empty Re: Backslide and New Associates on Fri Dec 02, 2016 11:27 pm

"Jonathan wanted to do it," I admit as I reach a hand out to feel for the edge of the tub. "I sort of wanted to? It sounds like it could be exciting. But it scared me when he wanted to.

"It definitely needs to be with someone who you can trust," I nod as I turn to sit on the edge of the tub. "Do you mind if I get undressed?"

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188Backslide and New Associates - Page 8 Empty Re: Backslide and New Associates on Fri Dec 02, 2016 11:31 pm

"No, go ahead," I shake my head, capping the salts and rising as I return towards the sinks to put them up. 

"He's the little girl's dad, right..? Jonathan?" I ask, eyebrows pinched as I try to place where I'd heard the name. I know he'd told me about someone that'd fit that role, but it felt more recent than that.

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189Backslide and New Associates - Page 8 Empty Re: Backslide and New Associates on Fri Dec 02, 2016 11:35 pm

"Yeah, he's in prison now," I nod as I strip out of my clothes so I can climb in the tub. "Richard helped put him away. For once, I was actually grateful for the help. He wasn't a good man."

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190Backslide and New Associates - Page 8 Empty Re: Backslide and New Associates on Fri Dec 02, 2016 11:40 pm

Frowning, I cut on the sink to wash the smell of the salts from my fingers as I listen to him climb into the water. 

"I don't actually remember what you'd told me about him," I say evenly, cutting the water off tentatively as I dry my hands. "What happened?"

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191Backslide and New Associates - Page 8 Empty Re: Backslide and New Associates on Fri Dec 02, 2016 11:48 pm

"He was just... a bad person," I frown as I sink into the water slowly, my arms coming to rest on the edge of the tub so we can continue talking without Ljuba having to watch her gaze. "His wife passed, and he just... I don't know, he lost himself. I don't know if he got tangled up with the wrong people or what, but he started getting resentful and more and more violent... then he came after me and Clio, and I never saw him again. Richard said he was imprisoned. But he could easily dead, too, I don't know."

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192Backslide and New Associates - Page 8 Empty Re: Backslide and New Associates on Sat Dec 03, 2016 12:33 am

I linger for a moment trying to recall what had been said to me in the past about Jonathan, but nothing seems to come forth right away. Sighing, I spin around to hoist myself up onto the counter, crossing my ankles as I look over at Marnin.

"Are you sad about that..?"

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193Backslide and New Associates - Page 8 Empty Re: Backslide and New Associates on Sat Dec 03, 2016 12:36 am

"No," I say flatly, a torn frown slipping across my lips anyway. "I don't know? Things were... complicated with him. I liked not being alone, but... no. I'm glad he's gone."

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194Backslide and New Associates - Page 8 Empty Re: Backslide and New Associates on Sat Dec 03, 2016 12:43 am

"Did you ever fight back..?" I ask cautiously, trying to remain casual as I watch him closely. "You're a big guy, Marn, I can't imagine anyone roughing you up and walking away from it."

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195Backslide and New Associates - Page 8 Empty Re: Backslide and New Associates on Sat Dec 03, 2016 12:47 am

"I didn't want to fight him, Lju," I respond quietly, my attention turning to the faucet as I adjust the water, more to distract myself that anything. "He was my friend and I loved him."

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196Backslide and New Associates - Page 8 Empty Re: Backslide and New Associates on Sat Dec 03, 2016 12:55 am

"But-" I frown, trying to find a delicate response that won't challenge or condescend him as I kick my feet absently below me. 

"You can fight your friends, though. I mean, people fight. It's just a fact of it. Relationships aren't this one sided arrangement where one person gets to walk all over the other... And if fighting back means the friendship is over, then they weren't your friend at all."

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197Backslide and New Associates - Page 8 Empty Re: Backslide and New Associates on Sat Dec 03, 2016 1:13 am

"That's precisely why I didn't fight him, Ljuba," I say seriously, a pinched look coming over my face. "He wasn't my friend. He didn't care about me at all.

"But Richard had just taken my mum, I'd lost everything that made my life worth living - I didn't want to be in this house by myself anymore. So I moved in with Jonathan, to try to help out while he worked through his own demons. We fucked around one time, and I became infatuated with him. I thought if I could make him happy, I would never have to come back here - that I'd never have to see Richard or my mother again.

"But nothing I did made him happy," I say roughly. "He was just angry all the time. He wanted someone to yell at, someone to take the abuse. I bit off more than I could chew, and I was ready to choke on it if it meant I never had to spend another night by myself in this house."

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198Backslide and New Associates - Page 8 Empty Re: Backslide and New Associates on Sat Dec 03, 2016 1:28 am

"Why are you so terrified of being alone?" I ask almost too-harshly as I look at him.

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199Backslide and New Associates - Page 8 Empty Re: Backslide and New Associates on Sat Dec 03, 2016 1:38 am

"Aren't you?" I ask with a pained laugh as I cock my head toward her. "Don't you ever feel isolated, walking around out there in your mask, people staring at you and skirting around you so they don't have to speak to you?"

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200Backslide and New Associates - Page 8 Empty Re: Backslide and New Associates on Sat Dec 03, 2016 1:41 am

"I was never afraid of it." I respond sympathetically. "I didn't enjoy it, but I wasn't scared of being alone."

"Marnin, the way you feel... It isn't healthy. You have to figure it out or you're going to kill yourself, whether you meant to or not won't matter."

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