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301 Re: Everyone needs a fucking chill pill. on Sat Dec 24, 2016 2:20 am

"Yeah, Dad, too." I nod, digging into my tea to pull out what's left of my lemon.

"She was just in poor health," I shrug, not wishing to dwell on the topic any longer than I have to. "Decided one day she didn't feel like suffering anymore, so she did something about it.

"Dad never really got over it, and he was a good bit older so the stress of it just ate at him. His health went to shit and he died almost three years to the week after she did."

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302 Re: Everyone needs a fucking chill pill. on Sat Dec 24, 2016 2:24 am

"I'm sorry, that must have been terrible for you," I frown, genuinely feeling for her.

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303 Re: Everyone needs a fucking chill pill. on Sat Dec 24, 2016 2:27 am

"Eh," I shrug with a lame laugh, "I honestly don't know if it was better before or after, but during..? During was definitely hell.

"Uncle John was a godsend, though."

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304 Re: Everyone needs a fucking chill pill. on Sat Dec 24, 2016 2:31 am

"Yeah," I nod with a smile. "He's a good man."

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305 Re: Everyone needs a fucking chill pill. on Sat Dec 24, 2016 2:35 am

"What about you?" I ask, eating what's left of the lemon before taking a drink of tea, "You said your money goes into caring for your mum, is she in a long term care facility?"

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306 Re: Everyone needs a fucking chill pill. on Sat Dec 24, 2016 2:45 am

"Yeah," I sigh as I rest my chin in my hand. "Richard isn't aware that I know, but one of his 'business associates' shot her about ten years ago. She went on vacation after it happened, and when she came back, she suddenly had dementia and loss of motor control. Took years is physical therapy to get her walking around safely, but she still can't hold a spoon or brush her hair.

"She has no memory of me most days," I admit dully. "When I was caring for her myself, it crushed me every time she couldn't remember. I barely ate, couldn't sleep... Richard finally stepped in and put her in a care facility. And that's when I started using..."

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307 Re: Everyone needs a fucking chill pill. on Sun Dec 25, 2016 1:04 am

I frown sharply as I watch him, taking a tentative sip of my tea before looking down at the counter absently. 

"It had to have been hard to relinquish care of her," I say flatly, "It's never easy deciding it's the right thing to do."

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308 Re: Everyone needs a fucking chill pill. on Mon Dec 26, 2016 11:01 am

"Yeah," I sigh as I swirl my tea for a moment before taking a sip. "Some days I'm not convinced it was the right thing, but then I visit her and I see how well she's cared for... and I think about how embarrassed she would have been having one of her sons have to take care of all of her dressing and bathing needs...

"She was a very proud and regal woman," I admit fondly. "But not in that unappealing arrogant way, you know? More... every person has dignity and deserves respect kind of regal.

"I don't know, I'm rambling. I just know she's happier where she is, but it's still hard."

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309 Re: Everyone needs a fucking chill pill. on Mon Dec 26, 2016 11:45 am

I only smile vaguely as I take a drink of tea, sliding from my stool to go stir at the boiling water absently. It's to turn them, I reason with myself. 

"So how's your head feeling?" I ask after a moment, setting the spoon down and resting against the counter. "John patch it up?"

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310 Re: Everyone needs a fucking chill pill. on Mon Dec 26, 2016 11:48 am

"Mm," I nod, trying to keep the frown from my lips. "He's been popping in a couple times a day to give me something. Injectable, makes the room taste funny. But my head feels much better afterward."

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311 Re: Everyone needs a fucking chill pill. on Mon Dec 26, 2016 11:53 am

"Taste funny..." I repeat the words with a slight laugh, nodding softly. "That's good, though. What about your friend? She ever make her way back through?"

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312 Re: Everyone needs a fucking chill pill. on Mon Dec 26, 2016 12:02 pm

"She's been coming and going," I respond vaguely. "I think she felt bad after last time even though I kept telling her it wasn't get fault. It had technically been forty-eight hours line John advised."

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313 Re: Everyone needs a fucking chill pill. on Mon Dec 26, 2016 12:07 pm

"Ah," I nod, looking back at the boiling pot impatiently. 

"So that musical menagerie shop, it's down in the tech quarter? Do you sell like music boxes or something?"

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314 Re: Everyone needs a fucking chill pill. on Mon Dec 26, 2016 12:11 pm

"Well, yeah, but it's not just music boxes, " I respond with a shrug. "It's anything that makes noise. Music boxes, Vox units like Ljuba's, toys for kids, toys for not kids, musical instruments, clocks, mechanical animals, just...whatever really. If I can hear its parts moving, I can make it."

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315 Re: Everyone needs a fucking chill pill. on Mon Dec 26, 2016 12:15 pm

Scoffing, I shake my head. 

"That's really impressive, I won't lie." I laugh, "Especially the thing on Ljuba."

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316 Re: Everyone needs a fucking chill pill. on Mon Dec 26, 2016 12:20 pm

"Thank you," I smile, flushing slightly. "It's not really as impressive as reading a living breathing persons symptoms and being able to put them right again. Tech had gears and springs and wires, but people? Damn..."

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317 Re: Everyone needs a fucking chill pill. on Mon Dec 26, 2016 12:25 pm

"It's an outdated practice, or so it feels." I shrug, "So much of the world is shifting to tech work or magic, I wouldn't be surprised if by the time I'm old and feeble, doctors are a profession of the past."

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318 Re: Everyone needs a fucking chill pill. on Mon Dec 26, 2016 7:49 pm

"I hope not," I frown. "So much of what you do is fascinating. It's like biological tech... if people weren't so put off by a blind doctor, I would have liked to learned to do what you do."

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319 Re: Everyone needs a fucking chill pill. on Mon Dec 26, 2016 8:13 pm

"I hand out medicine and listen to problems, it's not as glorious as you think." I laugh, turning to grab some bowls down so I can get on with dinner.

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320 Re: Everyone needs a fucking chill pill. on Mon Dec 26, 2016 8:22 pm

"It's not gratifying to take someone who's broken and fix them?" I ask a little sadly. "That was always my favorite part of the job. I imagine it's probably harder to improve, say, a broken arm or damaged skin or something like that... but it would be fun to try, I think?"

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321 Re: Everyone needs a fucking chill pill. on Mon Dec 26, 2016 8:26 pm

"No, I mean... That's great," I shrug, fetching some spoons before busying myself pulling the boiled bags from the water and cutting them open. "Fixing people is why I wanted to be a doctor... But that's not the sort of stuff we get too often. Lots of colds, hangovers, overdoses... 

"To be honest, a lot of what we deal with is either brought on from old age - and in that case we can't do much other than make them comfortable and wait for them to die - or it's self-inflicted. Drug abuse, reckless behavior, suicide attempts. And in those cases, we can fix it, but there's no victory in it because nine times out of them, we're seeing the same patient with the same fucking broken arm three months later because they just don't give a shit."

I inhale sharply as I finish rambling, glancing up towards Marnin a bit apologetically. "Sorry, that really wasn't directed at your situation..."

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322 Re: Everyone needs a fucking chill pill. on Mon Dec 26, 2016 8:42 pm

"I sort of forgot about my situation for a moment, so it's alright," I shrug, a tiny frown tugging at the corner of my lips as I stare off blindly in her direction. "I can understand how that might be frustrating, though. I've sold many wonderful things only to have clients bring them back to me week in and week out claiming that it broke due to inferior craftsmanship when I know they were reckless with it because they handed a delicate piece of work to a fucking three year old while standing right there in front of me.

"But no, I am careless and reckless with my health and my safety," I admit reluctantly as I fidget with my teacup absently, my thumbs tracing along the rim. "Sometimes I forget I'm not invincible. Back when I used to do this sort of thing more often, I could go weeks without ever taking a hit because I was faster and sharper than the people I fought. But it's been so long... I hit the bag damn near every day, but my reflexes have gotten rusty. I've gotten sensitive to the adrenaline again, too. It used to fuel me, but this last time, it just made me shaky and angry and afraid."

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323 Re: Everyone needs a fucking chill pill. on Mon Dec 26, 2016 8:45 pm

"Sounds like you need a new hobby," I offer softly, dropping the emptied bags into the trash before grabbing his bowl and bringing it to him.

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324 Re: Everyone needs a fucking chill pill. on Mon Dec 26, 2016 8:51 pm

"I'll never find a new hobby," I sigh as I rest my cheek against my knuckles, my elbow propped on the edge of the table. "I swore I would pull Richard's network apart before I was even of legal age. But for every pawn I knock over, three more sprout in their place. And in the ten years that I stopped, he's cemented his grip over this city beyond anything I ever thought he could accomplish.

"No," I sigh. "I'll be chipping away at the dragon's back until the day I die, or the day he rolls over in his sleep and crushes me."

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325 Re: Everyone needs a fucking chill pill. on Mon Dec 26, 2016 9:04 pm

"You're going to get yourself killed," I say plainly, taking my seat as I drop my fork into my own bowl to stir some of the heat out of it.

"But that's your prerogative." I shrug, taking a small bite of my dinner, making a slight face at the taste of it. Might not buy this particular kind again.

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